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new lyf..

new soul..

new heart..

new ME!

i finally move on..svhn nlng ntn na i got the pieces of my heart back..

and now,im smiling again..whew!

2 boteng MATADOR lng pla ang ktapat nito at isang kahang MARLBORO LIGHTS..

knting iyak at sigaw sa harap ng mesa at mga ktropa at eto aq ngaun,puno na ulet..

i realize you’re not worth it..

tama ang mga tropa q..d tau bagay..

HEAVEN and HELL pla ang pagitan!

at isa pa..wow,an’kapal mo,tsong..

tnx nga pla..Y?dhl kng d mo aq cnaktan,d ko maki2lala ang taong pka2salan q nAun…

u can finally go to HELL…

and don’t bring the DEMON to me bcoz I got my own DEVIL in ME..

..coz the day I thought I nvr get through, I got over YOU..

erxtian,

i gave up everything to love you,

even my pride just for you…

but I don’t know what I had done

for you to act this way…

and leave me here…alone…

goodbye…is the most painful word I heard…

and its much more painful hearing it from you…

Parting Time
by: Rockstar

I remember the days
When you're here with me
Those laughter and tears
We shared for years
Mem'ries that we had
For so long it's me and you
Now you're gone away
You left me all alone

Go on, do what you want
But please don't leave me
You'll break my heart
Hey, what should I do
Babe, I'm missin' you
Please don't disappear
These are the words that you should hear
Time and time again
I wish that you were here

I don't wanna lose you girl
I need you back to me
I don't wanna lose you
Baby can't you see
Oh, I need you
You've been a part of me

I wish someday you'll be back home
'Cause I really miss you
Darling, please come home

I wish someday you'll be back home
'Cause I really miss you
Darling, please come home

pAuL cHriStiAn pErEz…rEaD oN!!!

Much has been said
Said you never leave
Why’d it have to be
Harder than it had to be
Don’t you throw blame
You were a part of this
Wasn’t suppose to end
With us just walking away
So many times we tried
Holding on to the pain but in my baby’s eyes I see my shame
Asking why you had to leave
Wasn’t I strong enough to make you see
That the biggest part of this
It’s not about you and me
But just be wrong if we held on
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
A taste for the old days hard lessons
We’ve left behind
This mirrors an open door
I can barely stand to see myself
I don’t know what to do anymore
I’m crying out for help
Ohh lord
Much has been said
Will I never learn
Keeping my fingers crossed
Praying for my luck to turn
But I can’t complain
I’m living it easy
Job’s keeping me busy
Going crazy
Can’t describe the way it felt
When you left said your goodbyes
It just seems crazy for me to think
That I’ll find love a second time
But we all know how it all wraps up in the end
Maybe tomorrow we’ll find
Ohhh lord…
What am I leaving behind
Sweet how we see the big picture when your life’s not on the line
I know the way out but do you see what I see
A tortured life always second guessing the bookie
Put money on the table thought that was all I had to do
Never came home
Never said a word to you
No one ever said it was going to be easy…
Easy start over again this time this time
Let’s do it right
Start over again this time this time
Let’s keep the fires burning

…she says:

"i2wan mu nb aq?"

…he says:

"hindi ah…bkt nmn qta i2wan?

edi,pg iniwan qta,pwd pa qtang blikan?"

…I cried…sobra…

e1 qng bkt…I jaz felt every single of my heart breaking into pieces in front of me…

feeling q namatayan aq…na tntnong q ang sarili q kung ano b ang ngwa q??

kz,prang ang labo eh…ur leaving me without even hearing my side…

the more I tried 2 think,the more it hurt me…

and ndi na xa biro ngaun…

bkt kb gñan?ngaun kpa umalis kng kelan kylngan qta…I thought you’re also there for me…pero,e2 aq…nag-i2sang umiiyak…dhl una,I lose you and second,I can’t believe na g2win mu 2 skn…

thanks…a lot…

for giving me another heartbreak…

sHocKz??!!!
ns2ktan aq??!!without even knowing why??!!
ns2ktn aq dhl nkta q xa kissing another girl on cam??!!sheet…I don’t care pero, bkt I hve 2 tke a second look pa if I don’t love him anymore??kung ndi aq affected???
cguro,I rily hve 2 move on na…
no more gudbyes…
auko nrng svhin sa sarili q na mk2limutan qta??!!d more I tryd 2 4get u,d more Im loving u??!!tang-ina kz…bkt kz nkha q pang lumapit??!!smantalang ns2ktan na pla aq??!!
tangang-tanga….
go 2 hell,asshole…
or join me in my man-made hell…

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No

See, I dont know why I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn’t mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn’t mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another act, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn’t mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn’t mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah

Ya questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone, I even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but I do admit I’m sad.
It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn’t mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah

…you don’t deserve to be happy…

kw ang kusang naglalayo sa sarili mo??!!!

you treat me as your friend pero ndi ko maramdaman na 22o un…

tell me…gaano kadaling maniwala sau?!!

"the hell with you…you keep haunting me..."

Sinong may alam kung saan ang daan

Patungo sa kanyang isipan

Sa isang halik nya lang Ako ay pumupunta

Sa mundo na kanyang pininturahan

Sino ka ba?
Ano ang iyong lihim?
Papaano kita mapapaibig
Mapapa sa’kin

Lahat ng kulay nya
Sa ati’y kumakanta
Tumatawag sa atin.. “halina”
Nauubos lahat ng galit at sana
At ang mundo ay napupuno ng pag-asa

…bkt gnun?I still can’t resist being wid you??…

I still can’t resist na mpalapit sau…

I don’t know if I still love you…"

If only i could turn back the time
When all the words we say
We can make it rhyme
I just can’t get you off my mind
I can only smile when you were mine

I’ve been waiting for you all night long
Gotta listen to your voice on the phone..

Could have been a perfect love
I’m still tryin’
I know you’ve lost your faith in me
Now i’m cryn’
I know i’ve been a such a fool
I’ve been blinded
Can we just get back to where we’ve started
‘coz i miss your grip and i miss the way you kiss me

OCTOBER 18, 2006…

Lam ko, you still remember what happen…

im sorry…

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can’t, I can’t pick up the pieces
And I’ve thrown my words all around
But I can’t, I can’t give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there’s just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can’t, I can’t hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can’t, I can’t get up when you’re gone

And something’s breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won’t walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there’s just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there’s just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one